Today starts the beginning of a new style of blogging. I start with this, it is a pledge to you the readers, to my fellow students, to the faculty and staff of Cascade College. I refuse to let this mystical place die. I pledge with all my heart, strength, and mind to do everything in my power and the strength God will provide to save this place. 15 years ago upon this plot of earth Cascade College came to be. After 15 years according to people with check books it has ran its course. This is my time to be pissed so deal with it. But i see some thing different I see the Cade bursting into flames, and out of it a Phoenix will rise and join the ranks of the other Christian colleges and Universities. The words Goad used to comfort us on monday were beautiful, but i do not see cascade as a dying Hezekiah (i spelled that first try with out looking, see what we learn here). I see the story of Lot in Sodom and Gomorrah, we can change God's mind. Abraham went back and forth between God and the cities to find holy men. Well I have decided to take the position of Abraham, i have been pray and showing God the good, and fruitful things Cascade has to offer. I am praying specifically for Him to change his mind. I have a plan to save this place, all i ask is for you to stand with me. My friends i am going to need you more than ever, my colleagues here at cascade i am going to call on you in ways you think are harsh, i beg you please stand with me, and finally the staff and faculty all i ask from you i a prayerful mind and your love and compassion. thats all i got. i love you all.
these words are now more significant than any other time in my life...
Pray Hard and Hold On to Jesus.
forever and ever Amen.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Monasteries and Taxes
So today has been an odd day, the two things that have been floating around the old nogin are the taxes i have to get and fill out the whole fafsa thing and The early church in the 4th and 5th centuries. i dont have any philosophical thought today i just wanted to share the things on my mind. it is 5:51 right now and well im bored and i dont want to have to fill out my fafsa. Also i got to go home for the weekend...which it turns out is far more stressful than anything else, dont get me wrong i loved seeing everyone and usually i am refreshed after returning home but i just have a heightened irratiblity right now. usually i feel bottlecaps about this place (see http://hisnameisspencer.blogspot.com/2007/08/cade.html for that reference) but this time i am just washed out. i must now grudgingly go do my fafsa stuff
pray hard and hold on to Jesus
pray hard and hold on to Jesus
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Justin Martyr...
is the man. So i may be a huge nerd or i may be just expanding in my knowledge of the early church fathers. But i know for sure that this guy is awesome. Although his thoughts on bringing the lost to Christ are a bit out there with his "bridge building" ideals i find myself in accordance with him on many of his writings. "He was schooled as a philosopher, studying under a Stoic, an Aristotelian, a Pythagorean, and a Platonist, until he met an old man who in Socratic method raised questions only the "Christian Philosophy" could answer." Everett Ferguson's Church History V.1. I Justin's second Apology he states "Whatever things were rightly said among all men are the property of us Christians." I love the way that sounds all things that are truths of this world (look out Post-Moderns) yes truths are property given to us by the Risen Son of God the Father creator of all things. Epic thought.
thats all i got for now i must get back to writing my paper on this guy.
peace.
and may the force be with you....
but mostly with me.
thats all i got for now i must get back to writing my paper on this guy.
peace.
and may the force be with you....
but mostly with me.
Monday, October 13, 2008
Check It, Yo!
So heres the thing, <---(lets be honest thats better than "dear")
right. so my lasts post was in May...im super lame, there is so very much i can tell you yet i dont think that my words can rightly explain everything that has happened this summer. From leaving for P-town at the beginning of June and not being home in like 5 months, to the incredible yet exhausting summer at PSP (just ask me about it), being homeless for two weeks, living in a tent at a friends bosses house, to coming back to the Cade. It has been one of the most wonderful summers i have ever had. The people i met, the relationships that have flurished and the relationships that have come to be. But now is the time to just reflect. Its already fall break here at the Cade and i have so much homework to do (which i have most of it done). I miss the people i met this summer, Raleigh, and Jess, Josh and katina...there rest of you fools i see on a fairly regular basis so dont whine. God has roughed up my life this summer...this year really, giving me so much to think on and try and put into practice. And i know im not good at it and that i have failed in a lot of ways but i am still working on it still striving to be living for the God who created all things. The biggest thing is that suffering even to the point of death is the real definition of glory, Jesus was in his full Glory when he was on the cross. We here in the states dont know what suffering is and well i think that makes us soft. Dont get me wrong i dont think that we need mass persecutions like in the early church but i feel we need to constantly challenge our selves in what we believe and re-organize our thoughts even if the out come is the same we need to challenge ourselves. its so late and i am still up i want to go to bed but im also very hungry...lame so i am peaceing out. so to all those out in there in cyberland good night and God speed.
right. so my lasts post was in May...im super lame, there is so very much i can tell you yet i dont think that my words can rightly explain everything that has happened this summer. From leaving for P-town at the beginning of June and not being home in like 5 months, to the incredible yet exhausting summer at PSP (just ask me about it), being homeless for two weeks, living in a tent at a friends bosses house, to coming back to the Cade. It has been one of the most wonderful summers i have ever had. The people i met, the relationships that have flurished and the relationships that have come to be. But now is the time to just reflect. Its already fall break here at the Cade and i have so much homework to do (which i have most of it done). I miss the people i met this summer, Raleigh, and Jess, Josh and katina...there rest of you fools i see on a fairly regular basis so dont whine. God has roughed up my life this summer...this year really, giving me so much to think on and try and put into practice. And i know im not good at it and that i have failed in a lot of ways but i am still working on it still striving to be living for the God who created all things. The biggest thing is that suffering even to the point of death is the real definition of glory, Jesus was in his full Glory when he was on the cross. We here in the states dont know what suffering is and well i think that makes us soft. Dont get me wrong i dont think that we need mass persecutions like in the early church but i feel we need to constantly challenge our selves in what we believe and re-organize our thoughts even if the out come is the same we need to challenge ourselves. its so late and i am still up i want to go to bed but im also very hungry...lame so i am peaceing out. so to all those out in there in cyberland good night and God speed.
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Revenge of the blog
So I havent posted a real blog in a while. Even thought Jerms girlfriend creeper believe that my previous posts are real blogs I disagree. But alas I am back and I am going to do my best to stay on top of things. This week I got the official word that I am a PUMP intern. I am so excited to be there and in a place I love with people I love and doing something that God is calling me too. Although I have made some pretty cool friends this time of being home.I am going back to P-town on the 6th of June to have a little time to spend with friends that are up there before we start the hardcore summer of PUMP kids. I have retitled this Blog as you may have noticed to give it a new beginning. So thats all for now folks if anything interesting happens I will be here to blog.
May the Force be with you
...but mostly with me.
May the Force be with you
...but mostly with me.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
so haven't posted in a while
* You are not Ansel Adams
* Neither are you Herb Ritz
* Automatic Cameras - Aren't
* Auto Focus - won't
* If you can't remember, you left the film at home
* No photo assignment remains unchanged after the first day of shooting
* When in doubt, motor out
* If a photo shoot goes too smoothly, then the lab will lose the film
* If it's stupid but it works, it isn't stupid
* Success occurs when no one is looking, failure occurs when the Client is watching
* The most critical roll of film is fogged
* If you forgot, then you did not rewind the film
* Photo Assistants are essential, they give photographers someone to yell at
* The one item (batteries, film, and ect.) you need is always in short supply
* Interchangeable parts aren't
* Long life batteries only last for a couple of rolls
* Weather never cooperates
* Everything always works in your home, everything always fails on location
* For every action, there is an equal and opposite criticism
* The newest and least experienced photographer will usually win the Pulitzer
* Every instruction given to a lab, which can be misunderstood, will be
* There is always a way, and it usually doesn't work
* Never tell the Photo Editor you have nothing to do
* Things which must be shipped together as a set, aren't
* No photojournalist is well dressed
* No well dressed photographer is a photojournalist
* Professional photographers are predictable; the world is full of dangerous amateurs
* The nature shots invariably happen on two occasions:
-when animals are ready.
-when you're not.
* Same rule just substitute children
* Client Intelligence is a contradiction
* There is no such thing as a perfect shoot
* The important things are always simple
* The simple things are always hard
* Flashes will fail as soon as you need them
* A clean (and dry) camera is a magnet for dust, mud and moisture
* Photo experience is something you never get until just after you need it
* The self-importance of a client is inversely proportional to his position in the hierarchy (as is his deviousness and mischievousness)
* The lens that falls is always the most expensive.
* when you drop a lens cap, the inside part always lands face down in the mud.
* Bugs always want to land on the mirror during a lens swap.
* Your batteries will always go dead or you will need to put in a new film canister at the least opportune moment.
* Your batteries will always go dead during a long exposure (so with the shutter open).
* When you shoot the night away and never have to stop. Your film did not roll on to the take up reel.
Sent by Les Benton
* Camera are designed with a built-in sensor, that senses the anticipation to develop the film.
When the level of anticipation is highest, this sensor causes the back to flip open exposing the film.
Sent by Takura Razemba
* Lenses are attracted back to their source - hard rocks.
Corollary:
The more expensive the lens, the greater the attraction.
* No matter how long you've had a convention for marking film holders, you will forget it - when exposing the once-in-a-lifetime shot.
* Safelights - aren't.
* The greater a photographer's excitement, the greater its chance of fogging film, scratching prints, and deleting files.
* The success of an assignment is inversely proportional to the product of its importance and the number of people watching.
* Strobes only explode when lots of people are watching.
Corollary:
Strobes only work when there is nobody else to see.
The last six laws and corollaries were sent by Jason Antman
* Neither are you Herb Ritz
* Automatic Cameras - Aren't
* Auto Focus - won't
* If you can't remember, you left the film at home
* No photo assignment remains unchanged after the first day of shooting
* When in doubt, motor out
* If a photo shoot goes too smoothly, then the lab will lose the film
* If it's stupid but it works, it isn't stupid
* Success occurs when no one is looking, failure occurs when the Client is watching
* The most critical roll of film is fogged
* If you forgot, then you did not rewind the film
* Photo Assistants are essential, they give photographers someone to yell at
* The one item (batteries, film, and ect.) you need is always in short supply
* Interchangeable parts aren't
* Long life batteries only last for a couple of rolls
* Weather never cooperates
* Everything always works in your home, everything always fails on location
* For every action, there is an equal and opposite criticism
* The newest and least experienced photographer will usually win the Pulitzer
* Every instruction given to a lab, which can be misunderstood, will be
* There is always a way, and it usually doesn't work
* Never tell the Photo Editor you have nothing to do
* Things which must be shipped together as a set, aren't
* No photojournalist is well dressed
* No well dressed photographer is a photojournalist
* Professional photographers are predictable; the world is full of dangerous amateurs
* The nature shots invariably happen on two occasions:
-when animals are ready.
-when you're not.
* Same rule just substitute children
* Client Intelligence is a contradiction
* There is no such thing as a perfect shoot
* The important things are always simple
* The simple things are always hard
* Flashes will fail as soon as you need them
* A clean (and dry) camera is a magnet for dust, mud and moisture
* Photo experience is something you never get until just after you need it
* The self-importance of a client is inversely proportional to his position in the hierarchy (as is his deviousness and mischievousness)
* The lens that falls is always the most expensive.
* when you drop a lens cap, the inside part always lands face down in the mud.
* Bugs always want to land on the mirror during a lens swap.
* Your batteries will always go dead or you will need to put in a new film canister at the least opportune moment.
* Your batteries will always go dead during a long exposure (so with the shutter open).
* When you shoot the night away and never have to stop. Your film did not roll on to the take up reel.
Sent by Les Benton
* Camera are designed with a built-in sensor, that senses the anticipation to develop the film.
When the level of anticipation is highest, this sensor causes the back to flip open exposing the film.
Sent by Takura Razemba
* Lenses are attracted back to their source - hard rocks.
Corollary:
The more expensive the lens, the greater the attraction.
* No matter how long you've had a convention for marking film holders, you will forget it - when exposing the once-in-a-lifetime shot.
* Safelights - aren't.
* The greater a photographer's excitement, the greater its chance of fogging film, scratching prints, and deleting files.
* The success of an assignment is inversely proportional to the product of its importance and the number of people watching.
* Strobes only explode when lots of people are watching.
Corollary:
Strobes only work when there is nobody else to see.
The last six laws and corollaries were sent by Jason Antman
Thursday, February 21, 2008
It seems like everything I touch just falls to pieces
It seems like everyone I help just falls
And how I need someone to make me feel assured
I don't need anyone if You're on my side, Lord
And I say, hey, who can be against me?
No matter how hard I try I always fail
I'll never be like Christ
I know I'll struggle until the day, the very day I die
And how I need someone to make me feel assured
I don't need anyone if You're on my side, Lord
And I say, hey, who can be against me?
God look at me, I'm just a man
But You tell me I'm not just a man
You're so hard to understand, after all I'm just a man
God you tell me not to doubt
But I'm always plagued by doubt
And You always help me out
I'm so ashamed (of my doubt)
so i have probably heard this song a thousand times. yet it still gets me. to the core it gets me. Especially that last part. I still have a hard time putting all of me into Christs saving grace i want to do it on my own. but i know i cannot. its hard i have relied on myself for so very long, i had to grow up pretty dang fast, i had to understand life too soon i think, i had a bastard of a stepdad he made sure of it, i dont feel as if i had enough time to just be a kid. i dont know, but i had to mature quickly and so i feel that is why i reject the hardcore maturity that comes with my age (my birthday was yesterday...21 now). its weird though all i want is to put my faith and trust in him unconditionally and i know i can i just cant let go...suggestions?
It seems like everyone I help just falls
And how I need someone to make me feel assured
I don't need anyone if You're on my side, Lord
And I say, hey, who can be against me?
No matter how hard I try I always fail
I'll never be like Christ
I know I'll struggle until the day, the very day I die
And how I need someone to make me feel assured
I don't need anyone if You're on my side, Lord
And I say, hey, who can be against me?
God look at me, I'm just a man
But You tell me I'm not just a man
You're so hard to understand, after all I'm just a man
God you tell me not to doubt
But I'm always plagued by doubt
And You always help me out
I'm so ashamed (of my doubt)
so i have probably heard this song a thousand times. yet it still gets me. to the core it gets me. Especially that last part. I still have a hard time putting all of me into Christs saving grace i want to do it on my own. but i know i cannot. its hard i have relied on myself for so very long, i had to grow up pretty dang fast, i had to understand life too soon i think, i had a bastard of a stepdad he made sure of it, i dont feel as if i had enough time to just be a kid. i dont know, but i had to mature quickly and so i feel that is why i reject the hardcore maturity that comes with my age (my birthday was yesterday...21 now). its weird though all i want is to put my faith and trust in him unconditionally and i know i can i just cant let go...suggestions?
Saturday, February 16, 2008
so im bored
Im so bored that i am writing a blog with out a cause, i usually have some life feeling or some super random thought that i want to share with the blogging community but this time im just going to talk. I just really really bored, its summit weekend here at the Cade, and its one of my lest favorite weekends in the lot of them. Punk high schoolers here to take up space. I hate it. all my friends are out whoring themselves the Cade machine, and i am sitting in my room listening to the Lost background menu music...its Hawaiian, speaking of Hawaiian i went to this place in the Clinton District of P-Town called Noho's its was amazing pricey but worth it. Gah im bored want to take some pictures but all my film is gone and i dont want to spend money on that right now. gah i want to blow up. thats it i guess. call me...
Friday, February 8, 2008
so i might get cynical...
Where does the misunderstanding come from,
demanding that we be outstanding and then some?
Perfection never was a requirement
although some might say we desired it.
So then for times when things get old I might get cynical
I see that I don't see.
Do they see you when they see me?
In honesty there's room for improvement
Thoughts may change, the truth be told,
A closed mind will leave you empty
Use your mind to use your soul.
Alert the press, their dogmas are a mess,
Opinions shift, a broken sift, an empty hand,
And billboards ask, 'where do they stand.'
Do all streams lead to one sea?
Logically there's room for all questions
Though the answers aren't all known,
Objectivities the myth of plenty,
Who doubt His truth within their soul.
demanding that we be outstanding and then some?
Perfection never was a requirement
although some might say we desired it.
So then for times when things get old I might get cynical
I see that I don't see.
Do they see you when they see me?
In honesty there's room for improvement
Thoughts may change, the truth be told,
A closed mind will leave you empty
Use your mind to use your soul.
Alert the press, their dogmas are a mess,
Opinions shift, a broken sift, an empty hand,
And billboards ask, 'where do they stand.'
Do all streams lead to one sea?
Logically there's room for all questions
Though the answers aren't all known,
Objectivities the myth of plenty,
Who doubt His truth within their soul.
Monday, February 4, 2008
I have a Dream...
so I haven't blogged in a very very long time. But anyways, So I'm in a place where I feel everything is fine. But I also have this eerie feeling this is just the calm before the storm. I don't know why I am so paranoid but I am. I also feel a bit lost at times, like I've loved being away for so long I don't know how to react to genuine people because I haven't seen them in so long. People really are lame, people will really let you down no matter what. I understand why God wants us to lean on Him and not on ourselves or others because we are bound to letting people down. I don't know anymore World Wide Web people suck, I have known this for a very very long time but I guess I still let myself hope that this world isn't as terrible as I see it, but then again I am let down. I do not understand people and their pettiness, why "Men" act like bitches, why "Women" are so snide behind each other, how people can just give up on dreams. Is this what we grew up so fast for? Is this really it? I can not believe that, for some reason I believe there is more. I really believe there really is more to me than there really is to me. (cheesy I know but move on.) There are no words to describe how scary that is to me, a life of monotony (<---I had to look that up to make sure I was using it right) God himself didnt want this for us, he gave us the spirit of desire for freedom and if we dont have it we go crazy and really lose sight of Him. I vow here and now not to let the pettiness of people the snideness of peoples pride and the deterioration of dreams contaminate my life. I will not sit to talk about differences in personality I will live mine, if I choose to not care about something let me not care, I dont make you, I will argue till the cows come home with you about it but will I care...no and i love it. ATTENTION TO THOSE WHO HAVE LOST SIGHT OF YOUR DREAMS...YOU POOR POOR FOOLS EMBRACE AND ACCEPT THEM FOR YOU LIVE BUT ONCE AND AT THEN END WHEN ALL IS SAID AND DONE AND YOU STAND BEFORE GOD AND ASKS HOW YOU LIVED YOUR LIFE FOR HIM YOU CAN SAY FULFILLED. Dream people just Dream
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