Thursday, August 23, 2007

This one is for all the suckers who still believe in LOVE

Hey everybody I’ve got somethin’ to tell it's what I learned from relationship hell
Lust turns to disgust a heart of gold into rust a soft touch to a slap in the
face- it gets old it goes away

This one's for all the suckers who still believe in love, this one's for you.
This one’s for all the suckers who still believe in love, this one’s for you.
It never works but we keep tryin' like fools learning and breaking the rules
At first you're excited then you're less than delighted by the end you wish
they would drop dead it can't last, it's gone so fast

This one's for all the suckers who still believe in love, this one's for you
This one’s for all the suckers who still believe in love, this one’s for you...

CHEER UP?

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

kind of a downer day

i dont have much to say today. Hutch and i had one amazing adventure to the storage unit, but were then turned away by the coded door. We need to make a payment on the unit or we cant get our stuff its lame but i understand. I find myself alone a lot this week, even when i am surrounded by the people i love and admire most i still feel a bit alone, and i know its really the frenzy of the first week back for everyone and we are all crazy its just that i want so much more with stuff right now and i cant have it. im being very selfish and i know Gods perfect timing is what i need to hold on to but yeah. my friend is moving to a far off land i am so going to miss her, i wish i could have told her the things that ive wanted for so long but havent had the guts too. well here it is. YOURE FREAKING AMAZING, I WISH I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME I SAW YOU...yeah she leaves this week for a long time fare thee well i shall for ever cherish the times we spent in the elevator...good night

Pray Hard and Hold on to Jesus

Monday, August 20, 2007

The Cade....


There is something different about cascade this year. Ive been here 2 and a 1/2 days so far, but for some reason i feel different. I see all these new freshman, and old faces, i for some reason feel older. Much older. i have never really ever felt this way before. i am not sure how i feel about this. i know growing up is a part of life...is it my turn? there are many things that scare me about this. but then again they are so extremely exciting. i don't know. 300 is playing behind me. yeah. there are so many faces that make me happy to be back here. and yet there are a few that tear my heart apart. if you are one of those people im sorry for whatever it is that ive done, but im really not to blame here. thats all im going to say. this year is going to be interesting. I just opened a package of Wonka Bottle Caps, i always forget that i love them: i think thats how i feel about the cade. i always forget that i love this place more than i think i do. its still early and 300 is on. so peace out for now

Pray hard and Hold on to Jesus

Friday, August 17, 2007

Seprated at Birth


His name is travis,
he has many alias' such as The Thum, T-Rav, Trav, those are just a few. He is the guy you go to when you need to know something about The Jurassic Period...actually you could ask him about any of those periods he'll hook you up with some random knowledge and he will even tell you about how we once ran around and acted as dinosaurs in elementary school at that place we have come to love Shasta. Since 1st grade this guy has been by my side. Hes my best friend. We've made some kick a movies and some pretty dumb ones, he loves Godzilla and his dog max ( coolest dog ever) this is him!

Michael Savage gets it...

[IF]

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling

Today is...

the final day i am at the church until i come back for Thanksgiving. Looking back at this summer it has had so many "up" days i cant really remember any "downers". Ive spent many days with close good friends, i have to say in your face Brian Simmons the friends i had in high school and i are still as close as ever. Death will be the only thing could possibly end this friendship. I for the last month have almost been dreading going back to the Cade, different reasons, but after attending the elders meeting this last Tuesday, i realized that any fears or apprehensions ive had are just things that will try and keep me off my walk to my ultimate goal...finishing the race. i find this passage in the bible so cool. Acts 20:24 says "However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God's grace." this life i have chosen well i guess our Father has chosen is so exciting and scary at the same time...i dont know im kinda rambling. This summer has been great being able to work with the youth and going to Tuba and to SBC are allows super huge blessings for me, this race im on is a lonely one right now, but He continues to strengthen me and i feel it at the most perfect of times...

thats all i got God's timing is perfect. His path for me is Perfect...but still i ask for more..im an idiot

Pray hard and Hold on to Jesus